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Body Positive, Health Negative

I never thought there would come a time in my life where I wouldn't be fighting with my weight for vanity but due to the health issues. Fast forward over a decade, I'm in my lovely dirty thirties, and BOOM!

I need to lose weight because of my health 😣

I've fought with my weight my entire life. I mean, my entire life. I've seen pictures when I was only 3 and I looked like I was 5! {See pic below! Do I look 3!? 😜}
I've been comfortable with my weight for the past 9 years or so. Big, small, big again, small again. In my mid twenties I got into working out and eating better to combat my PCOS symptoms and did really well. Girrl, I was sexy! You couldn't tell me nothing! 

At one point in my journey I was so much in denial that my PCOS had nothing to do with my weight, I was taking a handful of supplements daily. I mean, there are women 300lbs or more and they are getting pregnant. My highest weight for my 5'3 frame was 245lbs. I felt horrible at that time in my life. But for the past decade I have kept my weight between 200-225lbs. 
Lately I feel like I'm hovering towards the 230lbs mark. I haven't weighed myself in years. Partly because I just haven't cared. I'm comfortable in my skin. But my body isn't comfortable, and my PCOS absolutely hates me for it. 

See? Super duper comfy in my thickness! 

This is my 2018 fat self, and I have been feeling like crap health wise. I'm not really going into super detail what was my breaking point for me this Summer {it's sexual 👄💦💧👀👃 in nature}, but I knew enough was enough. My urine has smelled awful and sweet for months, and I have just been ignoring it. I've been breaking out in crazy rashes, which a sign for insulin resistance, and worse diabetes. So, I'm reclaiming my health back! 💪💪💪 I love what I see in the mirror, but skin deep, it's a mess in there! How do you find the strength + time to drop some weight when you feel 110% comfortable in your skin? 😐


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