I didn't realize my birth month is #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth. Funny how the first day of the month I have a complete mental breakdown. I'm fine now. Actually the next day I was doing much better.
I knew that transitioning my blog from my budding writing career to a lifestyle blog would be an interesting transition. I am usually secretive and tend to keep my feelings to myself. I knew that somewhere there would be an enemy or foe scowling at my posts, or making jokes at my expense. Which is fine, it comes with the territory. I don't do this for you, I do this for the lone girl that's out there like me. For the person who thinks they are the only one who suffers. I'm open because I'm strong enough to be open. I'm open about my PCOS and the facial hair that comes with it, because I'm inspired by those women who were brave enough to share their experiences.
I'm experiencing what I'm coining 'Environmental Sadness'. My surroundings are making me irritable, weepy, angry. I made a rash decision to close up shop for 9 long weeks while I get myself together, and put the final touches on my little life after dirty thirty. I can't stay away. I've been updating my Facebook Page and everything. I'm slowly finding my niche, and I'm drawing closer and closer to living it out.
I wouldn't be doing something right if I didn't have haters. I wouldn't be on the right path if I didn't have ups and downs. I wouldn't be finding myself if I didn't feel elated some days and depressed the next days. It's life. It's my life. I'm not ashamed of my life, my struggle, or my triumphs. It's everything that makes me Jae. I'm not afraid to live my truths, and you shouldn't be either. Never let someone make you feel inferior to their insecurities. There will always be someone trying to out your light, but you keep on shining bright despite of them!