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Share 4/12/2011
You could never know this feeling
I could never explain it to you
There are not enough words in the dictionary
Not enough meanings to convey these emotions
These feelings that travel through me,
Like little lightening bolts
I feel the jolts
Pulsating, reverberating throughout my being
I almost feel like nothing
Though I can feel everything
I almost am blind
Though I can see all things
Around me, through me, and sometimes inside me
I want to scream, shout even
But these feelings can never escape me
Haunting, haunting me, always with me
Surrounding me, embracing me, I am trapped
Sulking, fighting, always trying
Getting nowhere, two steps ahead and three steps back
Right or left, back and forth, around about me
I'm so lost, confused were your words
I want to shove your words down you throat
Watch you choke on them, choke on vomit
You can never imagine the pain
You could never fathom the torture
I could show it you, this I would love to do
Peel the skin back from your thick lips
Watch you bleed, massacre your seed
You think you're getting the best of me,
But I don't think you actually understand
I don't think you can actually see
It is I who is getting the best of you
Everyday, in every way
Puts a smile on my face, a switch in my walk
I never walk the walk, oh but I will talk the talk
You will hear my voice, hear me roar
You will know it's me, and who I am
You bring out the worse in me
My feelings fill the oceans, even the sea
You could never know this feeling
But I can act it out for you
I can even show you, too
Would you like that?
To know and feel this raw emotion?
I'd like to share that with you.


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