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Wordlust: Midnight Lament

Midnight Lament 12/25/2010
I feel conflicted
My words can't be depicted
I feel listless, abound in misery
Shelter me from the storm
I find solace in the eye
Give me strength, give me power
Unyielding power over my enemies!
Help me, help as I call out to you
I yearn for the strength of ten thousand Greek Gods
Blind and useless my life, along as I plod
Plan, plans and nothing ever sticks
My feelings, emotions, weighing me down
Getting me all lost in the mix
Fire, fire burn me to the tenth degree
Wet, soggy but grounded like a tree
A part of the earth, I find myself wanting to be free
Breeze, in the breeze I calmly flow
Planting my seeds and watching them grow
Raise my hands high into the sky
All I desire is my piece of the damn pie
So I work, and I work hard
Blood, sweat, and tears
I will not succumb to my fears
You will never know my weakness
You can never bring on meekness
I will fight, and I will scream
Shout it out loud so the Heavens can hear me!
See me! Feel me! Free me! Become a part of me
Brown skin and curly coils
Different from the others, but drawn to one another
Torn between two different worlds
Failing, falling, but always battling
Never giving up the good fight
Always, always trying with all my might
I feel distraught
Drowning in a pool of my own sorrows
Always been that way, this way, since I can remember
Always trying to convince myself it'll be better tomorrow
Tomorrow everything will be okay
Tomorrow things will be right as rain
Tomorrow you'll awake with no pain
I'm always focusing on tomorrow,
Forgetting about today
I blinked for far too long,
And tomorrow never came

(c) Gerrica Mobley, 2010 Please do not repost without permission, thanks!

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