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Wordlust: Looking Glass

Looking Glass 11/7/2010
I'm laying awake
I'm looking through the looking glass
Magnified, gigantic
The feeling is fleeting
The sun is pouring through
Keeps me awake,
Why not sleep during the night?
Day and night
Got me wrapped around the finger tight
Close my eyes, set me free
Hold me now, let me flee
I run away from my nightmares,
But they seem to always catch up
I dream with my eyes awake
It's the damnedest thing
The haunting images
The horrific faces
Like images from a horror movie
Who are you?
You strange being, you damn alien
I could run a million miles away
And you still end up in my face
My plague, with features
With eyes, teeth, and blood
Not my blood,
No I do not see it
Unknown, yet I know too much
I hate, but I don't know why
But I have all the reasons to
The most hostile of environments,
Without even a fight
But I struggle
Oh, hell!
How I struggle
This mental uphill battle
Feels like I'm carrying the weight of the world,
On my shoulders
The weight of a Mother's sorrow
A daughter's depression
It's like looking through the looking glass
Magnified to humongous proportions
I bleed, oh how I die a little inside
It's like watching my own horrific film
On repeat
Blind my eyes, shield from soul from the looking glass

Comments

  1. Hah! I just realized that the last line is misspelled!

    Suppose to read:

    Blind my eyes, sheild my soul from the looking glass....

    Ooops!

    </3 JAe

    ReplyDelete

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